During my military service, I received notice that my father died. The loss of my father was a deep pain to me. The army gave me a leave of one month to help the family.

One day, my boyfriend came to visit, and in my need for love and comfort I became pregnant. I didn’t even realize for a while that I was carrying a baby. When I realized that I was pregnant, abortion was the only option for me. I wanted to continue my life with nothing to stop me. I remember during my pregnancy moments that I allowed myself to be connected with my child, moments of having the most wonderful feelings of life within me. Because of the decision to have an abortion, I stopped the feelings immediately and shut them down. I will never forget how my mother begged me to keep my child and offered to raise him for me. Even this did not change my decision. I aborted my baby. As soon as this process finished I could not stop crying I felt that the life that was in me was gone, and I felt dead inside. My baby was dead and I could not reverse the abortion. I was so confused and wanted to run away from my life. I completely changed my lifestyle, left the army unit, and joined a completely different unit. I had to change the place of my unit because I didn’t want to be reminded of what I had done. In a matter of three months, my father died and I took the life of my baby.

Years later I went through a healing seminar for my abortion. My life has not been the same since. I dealt with anger, especially towards men, shame, difficulties to forgive myself, and received hope for my future. At the end of the seminar, I knew that I wanted to help other women who suffer greatly from their abortion experiences. I also knew that I wanted to help women with their unwanted pregnancies choose life for their babies. This was the beginning of my calling in this ministry, which I continue to this day. The Lord takes the most painful areas of our lives and uses them for His glory.