I already had had two abortions that have left me traumatized. When I met the Chaim Beshefa counselors all that I could talk about was the nightmare of the two abortions. As I planned my second abortion I ran away five times from different hospitals not willing to go through the trauma all over again. The fifth time the nurse ran after me outside to set a date for the abortion. I agreed and followed through with the abortion. Immediately thereafter, I began to have nightmares of a couple who were holding a child but the child was dead. Now I am pregnant again. 

Through counseling, I understand that I suffer from post-abortion syndrome. When I went to the doctor, he suggested that I have an abortion. I looked at him and said, “How can you offer to kill my baby when you made a vow to save life and not to kill?” 

When I left the doctor’s room I stopped at the waiting room and talked with the young women there, pleading with them not to choose abortion. I gave them the hotline number to call. Through all the pain of the abortions, the memories and nightmares I experienced, I myself have become a fighter for life.